noticed my patience limit is getting shorter. esp with the cell and the l. i'm tired of everything. i was shocked by my own reactions in friday. but it came to a point where ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. actually i was more pissed with the l. okay, i made him guilty. so he got a cake to make me guilty instead. like i'm some freaking spoilt child. the cake? thanks but no thanks. i guessed i offended some cell members in a way cuz he got a cake for me and makes me look like a spoilt child. bias? i rather he leave me alone. anyway, wat's done is done. impression made that i'm a spoilt child. watever. reason for walking away? i'm annoyed and irritated. he doesnt seem to understand that not everyone has all the time in the world. i had a stricter curfew now. with a mother who locks u out after 10 and starts screaming and yelling at me and drinking beer. this triggers a series of suicidal thoughts in my head. i cant help it.
talked to sister huimin on the way home just now. made me even more feel like transfering cell.
:( i'm not happy. i'm struggling now with nobody to talk to.